The year 2022

I think after all these decades we all got used to the scenario on New Years Eve. Another year has passed and we cannot wait to begin with the new one. What's not to love about that day? There's all the celebratory glitter, the strong cocktails and of course the part of the sentimental self-reflection and new goals. And this is the part where we start to mess things up, lol.

Believe me, I am not saying that I also don't have some resolutions. Your girl really hasn't got her shit together as well haha, but after all these years of making myself sick with toxic resolutions which I couldn't and will never fulfill, I've decided to change them.

I've also used to be the girl with plenty of goals for the next year. In fact, by the age of 13 I started writing page after page about different goals I want to achieve by the next couple of months. Honestly, the amount of ridiculous aims I used to have are hilarious. I'm sure that this was an ongoing thing for me until the age of 17 or 18. But reading these sentences I've used to write as a thirteen year old today, always breaks my heart a little bit. Instead of focusing on fit pics, worrying about my orange leggings not matching my pink ballerinas, trying to get rid of my ''almond'' eye shape others used to bully me for and trying to finally like brussels sprouts, I should have just enjoyed day after day.

I don't have to change my looks to ''fit in''. I would never want to change my eye shape because now it is something I came to find beautiful about myself, and last but not least, I don't and I will never like brussel sprouts, lol! :) And yes, we're not thirteen anymore. But every time New Years Eve is around the corner, we get the same feeling. Why are we fighting against ourselves? Why are we trying to be somebody else?

If the intention of your personal work is to ''fix'' yourself, your efforts may drive your unconscious wounds deeper. But if the intention is to fall in love with all that you are - even the parts you are struggling with - eventually everything will come into the light to be healed.

This is not the year you have to compete against your successful friends at work, this is not the year you have to change your body to be happy and this is not the year of still not recognizing your very own talents, beauty and worth.

For some people, a new year is a new beginning , a drastically different and new chapter. For others it's just another day. Either way, don't let others pressure you. You do you. Do what feels fun.

So I'll say: New year, same me. But this time, I'm gonna love her better than ever.

All my love

- Naike